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I Put Pen to Paper – And This Is What Came Out

I couple of weeks ago, I grabbed my notebook and pen, went to a coffee shop and sat down to write. This is one of the things that came out. So here is my stream of consciousness, unedited. It’s not perfect but there it is.


Picture this: There are no pictures. Her walls stand as blank as her clean slate. No smudges. Not a single mark.




Don’t we all want that sometimes? The opportunity to start fresh – to go where nobody knows your name. A place where you’re the only one who even has the tiniest knowledge of your past. You don’t get to start over without your memories. The past comes with you but it’s up to you how you shape your future. Look at that blank slate. There is no comfort zone defined for you. No more familiarity. You take your past – the memories, the heartbreaks and your tainted heart and start over. This is day one. When you cross paths with the next new person in your life, what do you want their first impression to be? Because this is it.

Not to put pressure on your anything, kiddo. But this is what you wanted.

What will you do with the rest of your life?

You have the answer? Good.

I have a secret for you. Are you ready?

You don’t have to go to a place where nobody knows your name to redefine your future. This is your life. You want it to be different? Stop running in place. Stop letting your missteps and people’s misconceptions of you define who you are.

You define who you are. And guess what? It’s a lot less scary than you think. You get one life but you have more than one chance to make it what you want.

So, go. Live. Define and redefine.

Just do me a favor.

Stay true to you. Because there are no blank slates for that.

The rest can always be redefined.


  • literature_nut

    Hey, found you through 20sb. Just wanted to say that A) “Her Fearful Symmetry” is an awesome book and B) I really like this post, especially the not letting other people define you part. It’s kind of my motto. I have a friend who doesn’t get that concept and has become so bogged down by how she ‘thinks’ people view her that she is living a very unhappy life trying to please them.

    Nikki from:

    • Berrak

      I’m about a quarter-way through the book and I love it.

      I hope that your friend finds her way to peace. I was like that too and it really took me a long time to get to where I am now.

      And welcome! Hope you’ll stick around 🙂 I’ll check out your blog too!