I ask myself that question more often than I’d like to admit lately. Maybe it’s a thing that happens after you turn 30. It may have to do with no longer having life milestones tied to age.
Honestly, it’s probably because days have started blurring into one another.
I’ve been doing a birthday blog post since my early 20s. It’s a way for me to think about my year and highlight the major milestones I accomplished.
I turned 32 this past Saturday.
Honestly, 31 was an exhausting age. It’s been a hell of a year, with lots of ups and downs.
When I turned 30, I wrote about how I chose me, and living with intention.
Choosing to live with intention comes with the consequence of being scary as fuck. The risks are higher but so are the rewards. Every decision I make is because I’m stubbornly creating a life of purpose.
I wouldn’t call it an unconventional life. We get so caught up with labels and telling everyone how they should or shouldn’t be living their life. I am so over that.
My life doesn’t have to live up to anyone else’s standards for it. Every single day, I wake up and fight through the weight of depression. Every decision I make, every misstep, every little bit of success is mine and mine alone. I have a lot of wonderful people in my life who give me their unwavering support and love, but at the end of the day, they aren’t the ones making the decisions for me.
Most of the time, decisions I make may not make sense to other people. That’s because you’re not in my skin or my mind.
I was talking to a friend of mine the other day about how it feels like my life goes through radical changes. In reality, the changes aren’t so radical if you look at my life as a whole.
When I look back at my life 5, 10, 20 years from now, I want to be proud of my journey. I’ve made a lot of mistakes. I’ll probably make a lot more.
Speaking of mistakes, one of these birthdays, I’ll turn down the shots my friends buy me. As we learned this weekend, 32 was not the year for that.
I declared 2017 my year of Gumption.
I guess setting fire to my safety net, getting my first tattoo, and having my first professional speaking gig would contribute to that goal.
To be perfectly honest, I have no grand declaration about being 32. It’s another year, another number.
I’m grateful for the love in my life, the losses that remind me of my strength, and every day that brings new opportunities for a worthy life.
I guess I’ll keep having to think about how old I am whenever I fill out a form.
No but seriously, what’s my age again?
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