Being Berrak
The One Where I Turned 30
I always post my birthday posts on my birthday. Always. This year, though, I wasn’t sure how to approach it. I mean, it’s a big milestone, and I know it’s a big deal…
Current Status
(Warning: This is a stream of consciousness post, also known as word vomit.) I’ve talked about how I am always aware of how I feel and if I can’t figure out the root…
I’m Needy. So Are You. And That’s OK.
“I’m needy. You know this.” This is something I tell my friends often. When I meet new people, I warn them about my neediness, because I know it’ll come up. My friends know…
2014 – The Year of the Penguin
That’s what I named my album for 2014 on Facebook. I had no idea what my year or life would be like. I certainly didn’t expect my life to look like what it…
My Body Image Epiphany
Whenever my mom and I talk on the phone, she always asks me the same question: “Have you lost weight?” The answer is always the same: “I’m working on it, Mom.” As a…
Leap of Faith
With shaky hands, I unfolded the two pieces of paper that had been taped to my door. I already knew what they would say but I didn’t expect the timeline to be accelerated.…
The Memory Keeper’s Burden
Friends passing the volleyball around in the sun. Families having picnics, as the kids run around chasing bubbles. A friendly baseball game between families. Daisies peeking out in the sunshine. One of the…
On Turning 29
A year ago, on my birthday, I was alone. My birthday was on a Monday and I was hoping that some of my friends would still want to come out and say hi,…
My Impostor Syndrome Is Currently In Remission
My fascination with clouds and the stars began long before Instagram filters and #cloudporn. Before I started working at 16 years old, I would make my parents buy me disposable cameras, and when…
Confession: I’m Sick of the ‘Single Life’ Articles
Every few weeks or so, the internet goes through different cycles and my news feeds are inundated with 50 different variations of the same topic. Lately, the focus seems to be all about…