So I’ve been a little selfish with my time lately.
I no longer return phone calls right away unless they’re followed by a text that says “Please call me right away.”
I no longer stay logged into chat even when I don’t have time to chat.
I no longer over-extend my time beyond what is allotted, and reserve some much needed ‘Me’ time.
And it feels good.
As silly as it may sound, I never imagined I would be living a life where my own needs and priorities were important enough to come first.
I do feel a tad guilty because I feel disconnected from my closest friends. I haven’t talked to my best friend of 10 years in weeks. I even missed his moving day because I was feeling sick. (How dare I!) The old me would’ve been a trooper and made my way out to help him move and then continued to die when I got home.
Why the change?
I came to the realization that the frazzled, overwhelmed, emotional mess of a person I was becoming was not good for ANYONE. I can’t be a good friend if I’m not feeling fulfilled. I can’t be a good friend if my own life is a HOT MESS.
The truth is, I’m working hard to get to a point where I have a balance. It doesn’t take away from the fact that I *do* think about my friends daily. I might seem distant and not paying attention but I am.
I just can’t pause every day to say hello.
Is that awful? I do feel guilty and I’m not even Catholic.
But I’ve learned that my friends understand. Most of them have been here for years. You know, the place where having a life is a good thing and taking time for one’s self is good for everyone in the long run.
My priorities at the moment?
My education, my health, my writing/career and my relationship.
You’ll find me studying, writing, exercising and networking online. Sometimes around the city.
Other times? You’ll find me on my couch, enjoying much needed downtime with my boyfriend. Or hanging out with my good friends.
But you will always find me.
I’m selfish with my time, but not selfish with my love.
This weekend, I’m walking in the Help the Homeless Walkathon. Wanna walk with me?
I put up new pictures on my Etsy! Go check them out, favorite my shop and, ya know, maybe buy one? 🙂
If we aren’t connected on LinkedIn, we should be.