I ran this post over and over in my head. I did no writing the entire weekend so I could soak up every moment.
Every inside joke.
And everything in between.
Friday morning, I got an airplane to Texas because I was invited to Squish‘s wedding. Squish, who I adore but have only known for a short while. Squish, who wanted me there on her special day. Squish, who fills my heart with love. Squish, who taught me that it’s not the years or the minutes spent face to face that matter but the trust and love shared between two people. Squish, who made this amazing weekend possible.
I was to spend the weekend sharing a room with women who know every corner of my heart. Women who took me under their wing. Women who taught me about true friendship by sticking with me through the worst and the best. Women who encouraged me to grow and take risks. Women who have become my soul sisters.
Every single one matters.
It was surprising to everyone that I had never met my Numbah 2 before. My business partner, one of my best friends and the woman I’d give anything for, has been in my life for the last 4 years. It wasn’t until Friday morning when I jumped in the pool to give her a hug that we’d laid eyes on each other. That hug meant the world to me. She’s my sister for life and one of the most important people in my life. No matter what. This weekend solidified our bond with laughter, snorts and smart-ass remarks. Now every word I read from her will be in her sweet voice, in every rant, I’ll hear her frustrated “F*CK” and every smile will bring her laughter to my heart.
And then there was my OG Mama. My cuddle buddy. The one who was the first to greet me at the airport (even though we screwed up our slow-mo scene.) The memories we shared this weekend will be unmatched for the rest of our lives. Her beauty, her smile, her hugs and her attitude…From head to toe, she is as real as it gets. She put up with my snoring, cover hogging and burps (I HAVE MANNERS COURTNI) for 3 nights. She saw right through me and took me in. (And meeting her kids was one of the biggest honors).
The three of us bonded on a deeper and different level than anyone else this weekend. Not better…just different. 40 years from now, when we look in our jewelry box and see that longhorn necklace, we’ll remember this weekend and every memory in between and give each other a call. Even if it’s just been a day or a year since we’ve seen each other.
And then there was Cassie. The woman who has commented on every single blog I’ve ever written for the past 3 years. Give or take a day. The woman who gives the best bear hugs. The one whose laughter fills up the room and you can’t help but smile. The woman who drives like a maniac and will race you even in a minivan. The woman who helped me get in the lake to swim because I was afraid of drowning. The woman who’s the best of the best!
I won’t recap every moment of this weekend. I can’t.
Every single moment was amazing. Every single memory is etched in my brain and every single woman who crossed my path this weekend and embraced me will always be in my heart.
I learned a lot about myself this weekend. I also learned a lot about friendship. True friendship.
The one that lasts forever through the ridiculous and the worst, as well as the joyous moments.
I also learned about love and commitment. I was there to share in the moment when two amazing people in love said their vows.
Congrats to Squish & Irish. Thanks for giving me the opportunity to be there to share your happiness and witness it firsthand.
i carry your heart with me(i carry it in my heart)i am never without it(anywhere i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done by only me is your doing,my darling) i fear no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true) and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant and whatever a sun will always sing is you here is the deepest secret nobody knows (here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows higher than soul can hope or mind can hide) and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart) - e.e. cummings