The title of my blog may be misleading at times. While I do my best to find a reason to smile/laugh every day, I’m not Little Miss Sunshine.
I’m not the kind of person to send my friends care packages full of cutesy stuff.
I’m not the kind of person to be all inspirational, and cheery on a daily basis. My friends know that if they need me, I’m here. I will message to let them know they’re on my mind on a daily basis but when it comes to being upbeat and full of sunshine?
That’s not me.
I try not to be a negative person. I do my best to stay positive, and I try not to fake it. If I’m having an off-day, I pretty much hide from the world and deal with it in my own way.
I’ve been fighting this sadness and bitterness the past couple of months and I try not to have it out in the open because I can’t deal with that unwanted advice, and the “you’re better off than so-and-so” or the “When I went through the same thing, only it was completely not the same, I did this” speeches.
I know people are trying to help, but sometimes, I just need to be sad.
And a little broken.
Maybe a little bitter and cynical.
So that’s where I am right now.
A little sad. A little bitter. A lot cynical.
Maybe I’ll be better tomorrow but for today?
I’ll crawl under my rock and be sad.