Just when I think that my love for you can’t get any deeper, another day passes…I see your sweet face, hear your laugh and my heart just grows bigger to allow the love that I feel for you. When you first came into my life, I was lost, broken and a ship without an anchor. You became my anchor to life. You became my life. Every breath you took, every giggle that escaped your lips became my purpose. I vowed never to let anything get in the way of your happiness and well-being and you became my sole reason for waking up every morning. Being away from you was unbearable. I would rush home every day to see your beautiful eyes, and hold you in my arms.
Sweet sweet boy…
You were the best little brother a big sister could ever ask for…The day that you were born was my rebirth. At 7, I was alive with each breath you took. Each tear you shed broke my heart and I wanted to do everything I could do to make you smile. Sometimes I was the cause of those tears because I was a kid too…and sometimes I didn’t treat you in the best way. We fought. You were just a baby and sometimes…sometimes I was just a kid. But you were my everything. You ARE my everything. As we grew older, I feared that we’d grow apart…and for a while there, we did. I was lost again and this time, I couldn’t have you as my anchor because my love for you wouldn’t allow it. It was too much of a burden for you and never could I talk to you about my fears because now, you were the one who was confused and you needed me.
I wanted to leave but I stayed. I stayed for you because I knew you wouldn’t understand if I left…I couldn’t bear to think that for one second, you would think that I abandoned you…so I stayed.
I don’t regret that. At all. Because today, you understand me. Today, you are my best friend once again and I can talk to you. I can share my pain and my joy. You are still just a boy…you are still my baby brother…bratty, spoiled and sometimes selfish…but you’re allowed to be…you’re 16. As much of a teenager as you are, it doesn’t take away from your heart…your compassion…your pride.
My darling boy, I’m so proud of the man that you are becoming even if you are misguided sometimes…because you recognize your own downfalls…and you want to make the best of your life. You have a heart full of love and passion. You are kind and considerate. You are growing up to be an amazing, wonderful man.
I may never have a child of my own but watching you grow up, I’m as fulfilled as I can be. You’ve gone from my baby brother to my best friend…though you’ll always be my baby boy.
People will come and go out of our lives. There’ll be days that go by without us seeing each other or speaking to each other…Life will go on but one thing will never change. You are and always will be the greatest love of my life and nothing in this world will ever stop me from being there for you. Unconditionally and forever.
Thank you for coming in to my life when you did…Thank you for being you.
This post was written for February Blog Carnival @ 20Somethings. The prompt: In honor of Valentine’s Day, write a love letter or a break-up letter. The letter can be addressed to anyone or anything– and from anyone or anything– past, present, or future.