“We live in a fantasy world, a world of illusion. The great task in life is to find reality.” – Iris Murdoch
I have a problem with walking away…letting go…moving on.
I hold on to the pain and the POSSIBILITY of things being OK…I have to get my point across, explain myself, have the person UNDERSTAND…
Not realizing that sometimes, people are so wrapped up in their own head that they can’t see what you are trying to show them.
There is only so much you can do.
I have a problem with letting myself FEEL pain when I don’t have to…when it’s OK to let go and move on, I just hold on because I wonder maybe it’s something I missed…and there is just something there…if I find it, EVERYTHING will be better.
So I hold on.
I held on.
Now I’m learning to walk away.
I’m walking away from the past, the impossibilities, the pain, the weakness, the cowardice…
There are things worth hanging on to and fighting for, down to my last breath. I’ll never stop being persistent and not letting go when I KNOW something is worth it and there is the possibility of something beautiful. I just have to make sure I’m not masking the pain with a veil of once-in-a-blue-moon moments and hanging on to something that is real instead of what could be.
I’m walking away from the person I was, taking all the lessons I learned with me…towards the person I want to become.