When the phone rings, I no longer have a sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach thinking “What now?”
There are no more secrets, only confidence.
There is no more turmoil, only peace.
There are no shadows, only a sea of light.
The next step in my life is to figure out how to live it for me. I no longer have to be responsible for anyone else. And to do that, I need help…Professional help. Up until this moment, I’ve handled everything on my own, getting over the hurdles and hiding the struggles from the ones closest to me. I cried myself to sleep and then hid the evidence. I hit rock bottom yet I acted like I was on top of the world.
These days? I have a constant smile on my face. For the first time, I feel like everything is going to be OK…and it’s probably about time that I get my shit together.
On my birthday, I made this list…
So this is the year I…
Move out. Huge, if you’ve known me for longer than 5 minutes, you already know.
Finish my degree? Possibly.
Launch my business? Quite possibly.
Travel off the east coast? After I move out, fo’ sure.
Publish my first book? It might just be an e-book but yes.
Start dating? *blank stare* We’ll come back to that one.
Derail and have to rethink my plans? Most likely.
Find a reason to laugh everyday? Without a doubt.
Intimidate people by being as real as it gets? I don’t think I have a choice.
Be afraid? Aren’t we all sometimes?
Make new friends, get stronger with the old ones & weed out the shit ones? Every.day.
Live? Even if it terrifies me.
I did number one…number 2 takes some time (Though I did pass my two classes…) So it’s time for the rest.
I’m going to keep blogging but I’m also going to be launching my new two sites in the next month and focusing on making business plans. Because I know that more than anything, I want to keep writing. I just have to get back on track of writing professionally instead of without structure.
So naturally, Blog 365 is out the window this year…but it’s been a good run. Now I’m going to focus on writing professionally, putting my life on track and enjoying my time with my friends…Because let’s face it…I have a lot of catching up to do.
When did you make the biggest change of your life? Did you take a completely new direction or stayed on track with your goals? What was a big hurdle that you’ve overcome in your life so far?