Promise me you’ll always remember: You’re braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think.
I love being the first one in the office. I like the peace and the quiet…I want to be able to get that peace and quiet at home.
I’ve been feeling semi-normal lately. I’m in an interesting point in my life…turning 24 in a week and only now starting to experience some things that I didn’t even realize were possible…for me. I’m learning to go with the flow and let things just happen. From what I hear, this is good…and if I don’t…and I screw things up by being an anxious ‘tardcake, two of my best friends have joined forces & threatened me…All outta love of course.
I’m learning that not everything has to have a label to feel real…and I’m learning that I’m allowed to feel good.
So I’m letting myself enjoy the moments and the attention…of course, the kisses and the smiles. Whatever happens will happen but in this moment…right now…I’m happy.
I’ve also decided that I can’t be the one that my family constantly depends on…How can I be good to anyone if I’m not good to myself? This morning, I left the house super early…the last time I did that, my brother and dad slept through their alarm and were late…Really? I don’t want to be responsible for that. And I don’t want to be the only one my dad emotionally depends on. For the last couple of months, I’ve been spending every night watching TV with him and then staying up late to try and finish the homework I should’ve been doing instead. It’s not my fault that my mom is unstable and my brother is a teenager that locks himself in his room.
I love my dad…and I want to be there for him but if it’s at the expense of my life and future, how far can it last?
So no weekday TV for me for the next couple of weeks at least. That’s why DVR & weekends were invented.
I actually ENJOY my school work. That’s why I chose this major. But when it becomes a chore after midnight, it’s a problem.
I’ve finally started the blogroll *points to the right*…Let me know if I missed you, especially if you link to my blog. More will come…Running the site and doing maintenance on all the other pages have had to take a back seat for now.
I’m broke but I’m happy
I’m poor but I’m kind
I’m short but I’m healthy, yeah
I’m high but I’m grounded
I’m sane but I’m overwhelmed
I’m lost but I’m hopeful baby
I’m free but I’m focused
I’m green but I’m wise
I’m shy but I’m friendly baby
I’m sad but I’m laughing
I’m brave but I’m chicken shit
I’m sick but I’m pretty baby
What it all comes down to
Is that everything’s gonna be fine fine fine
I’ve got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving a high five
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