“Do you have any projects for the intern?”
‘Scuse me? Why would I have any work to give to the intern? It’s a weird concept to me…maybe it’s because not so long ago, I was the intern. Or maybe because as long as I’ve known, I’ve been the one to take the lead on school projects, work projects and also be the one that does the bulk of the work.
“If you want something done right, you gotta do it yourself.”
I don’t do well with asking for help. Delegate is a term that really isn’t in my dictionary. It never has been. In fact, I’m usually the one that takes on more work than required.
Maybe it comes from being the youngest one at all of my jobs to date. No, really. Even at my current job, I’m the youngest…only by a few months but still…the youngest. So I do my tasks. I ask others if they need help. It’s the same at home…in fact, it’s probably why I’m the way I am. I could never ask for help for anything because I have been the one that my family depends on for the past 14 years. I made it through school and work without having anyone to depend on so why should I start asking others to help me now?
Because I can’t do it all.
Yet it is so hard for me to delegate. I also suck at explaining things to people because I always have my own system of doing things…My own shortcuts and quick-tips, etc that become second nature so it’s hard to explain things. Maybe that’s why my old job hasn’t hired a replacement for me. (Of course, it’s all about me and has nothing to do with the failing economy.)
So, I started this website. I had encouragement from Courtni and a lot of other people but in the end…or the beginning, I did it all. So it cost me $200 because I picked the wrong kind of hosting package/company. So I had a lot of errors and so I went through about 6 different looks before I picked this one. So I struggled with the coding and had to learn by trial & error. So I dived in head first without checking the water’s temp. Every time Courtni or Jaime asked me if they could do something, I said “No. I have to get through doing —- and it should be OK.” because I didn’t know how to ask for help…To ask for help, I’d have to know what I was doing.
Now…I’m learning. Slowly. I’m delegating some of the workload because running a website is hard work. And because my friends do love to help me.
And also because…now I know enough to be able to teach other so they can help me.
Asking for help is still hard for me. Maybe it’s a pride thing. Or it’s programmed. Or I feel that…if I’m using other people as a crutch, do I really accomplish anything at all?
Of course, you have to ask the right people. People that you trust because it’s a wicked world out there with petty people. In the work place, in the blogging world, in school…Find the right people to ask for help when you are ready to delegate.
How good are you with asking for help? Do you delegate? Are you in a position at work where you have people working ‘under’ your supervision? Is it your responsibility to distribute tasks? If it is or you’re just good at delegating, do you have any advice for me?
**On a side note, I’m a pretty sad panda because you guys obviously don’t like my fiction…I’ve been posting Songs of Lily for 3 weeks now and the feedback has been sort of…eh. Just sayin.**