I get called a lot of things…But the one that always stands out to me is when someone tells me that I am so “passionate” about a certain thing…It comes up a lot…and it makes me wonder. I always thought I was just an overachiever…but passionate? Well, isn’t passionate just about love? Because I do love with all of my heart, which always leaves me hurt…oh and I do love hot, steamy passionate sex…but this isn’t what I want to talk about…
See…I started thinking. If people are always calling me passionate, there must be something to it because let’s face it…I am not a ray of sunshine ALL the time but I am always determined to make the most of life and whatever it is I’m obsessed with at the moment. I guess what I called being an overachiever might just be me being passionate…about all things that interest me. Because I’m so passionate, I get heated…I get opinionated…I get loud…I get sensitive and sometimes…sometimes, I get butt-hurt.
One definition of passionate is: Capable of, having, or dominated by powerful emotions…
Yup. That is definitely me. To a stubborn T.
I feel everything in such a powerful manner, it’s not even funny. Until I feel humor and laugh until I cry or snort. Then it’s funny.
I feel frustration. I feel love. I feel anxiety. I feel scared. I feel hopeful. I feel…I feel everything. I also feel everything that the people I care about feel…And there are days I feel like my heart is going to explode…and because I feel everything so passionately, I don’t do well with disappointment. Or failure. I always tell myself that I shouldn’t care so much. After all…people always let me down…so why should the feelings of others matter to ME when mine aren’t even an after thought for them?
Then it hit me.
If I didn’t care…if I wasn’t so passionate in my life…my heart…for my future and about my past…then I just wouldn’t be me. Because I don’t know how not to care. I don’t know how not to hope. That’d be like me pretending to like sushi. Not gonna happen.
So I’ll go ahead and have my mood swings…I’ll go ahead and love with all of my heart even if my heart gets shattered…I’ll go ahead and attempt a million things at once because I just want to try them…I’ll go ahead and look forward to working and going to school and having dreams and hopes…I’ll go ahead and be passionate about reading and games and laughter and all things dorky & geeky…
I’ll go ahead and be the passionate & sometimes very horny…mostly dorky fool.
What does passion mean to you?
Think about it…because the theme for the month of February here at the PQ Nation is passion. When I first chose this theme, I honestly didn’t realize it was February…and that wasn’t the passion that crossed my mind. Our passion for life is one of the many things that bring us together…and I love my ladies…and with their different life experiences, I want to see passion through their eyes. For the remainder of the month, on M-W-F, you will be reading the thoughts of the amazing PQ Nation writers right here on this blog. Get ready for us to take you for a ride.
Because I’m doing Blog365…I will probably doing a personal post on the days the other writers are guest posting on here, just an fyi.