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All The Things I’ve Lost

I’ve lost a lot of things in my life…

I’ve lost my childhood.

I’ve lost my security.

I’ve lost siblings & grandparents & cousins.

I’ve lost hope.

I’ve lost that feeling of belonging and being home.

I’ve lost my virginity (OK, I sorta gave that one away)

I’ve lost self-esteem.

I’ve lost hair.

I’ve lost jobs.

I’ve lost patience.

I’ve lost myself.

Being the ditz that I am…

I’ve lost keys.

I’ve lost phones.

I’ve lost books.

I’ve lost clothes (Oh yeah)

I’ve lost directions.

I’ve lost money.

I’ve lost mirrors & brushes & razors.

Naturally,

I’ve lost my mind.

But in recent years, I’ve lost something that I didn’t even realize I had. Dealing with everything that I’ve dealt…I didn’t think I had the value to be loved and cherished. I didn’t think that I would have people who would be concerned about my well-being…I thought that I would be “out of sight, out of mind”…because too many people treated me that way.

In the last 2-3 years though…because of the amazing people in my life…those who call me, those who are worried about me when I’m not around, those who love me enough to notice what kind of mood I’m in from my “Hi/Hello/Hey”, those who make me smile, those who see my flaws and yet accept me as I am…

These amazing people have caused me to lose something…something so overbearing and so strong that I never thought it’d be something I’d really lose…

Out of all the things I’ve lost, I’m glad that I have finally lost the fear of being alone.



What have YOU lost…good or bad in your life?

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  • Kate October 20, 2008, 12:58 pm

    I lost a lot of blind faith, neurosis, doubt an insecurity the past year. Having lost those more than make up for any good things I have lost lately.

  • Cassie October 20, 2008, 1:42 pm

    I’ve lost the fear of being ME and all that it might entail!!!!! I’ve lost a bit of distrust. I’ve lost some of my ability to filter. I’ve lost people who seemed like friends. I’ve lost time!!!

  • Sebastyne October 20, 2008, 7:47 pm

    What have I lost… 3/4 grand parents. One uncle. One dog (to death, she didn’t run away or anything). My faith in Jesus. I’ve too lost some clothes. ๐Ÿ˜€ Lost the belief that my mom was flawless. Lost some Barbie shoes. (I think most girls have, but to me they still matter.) A ring was lost for me when I gave it to a boyfriend to wear for a night. I lost my birth control pill prescription again! Sometimes I think I’ve lost myself, but I’m trying to find myself again.

  • wovoka October 20, 2008, 9:11 pm

    You haven’t lost me. I’m just saying…;)

  • fahmi087 October 23, 2008, 9:18 am

    There are many things that we lost without even realize we already lost it. Recently I lost my favorite mug. Well it not like somebody stole it, it can be use anymore because my brother crack it.

  • krzkrzkrz October 23, 2008, 12:47 pm

    Pretty good entry. At first I thought it was a poem. Could sound like one as well

  • Mo October 24, 2008, 6:14 pm

    I’ve lost my desire to confront people with everything that annoys me…it’s usually pointless. lol. sad but true…I pick my “battles” carefully these days, too much other important stuff going on. ummmmm….like IMing my PQ! xoxox

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