A few years ago, during one of those regular weekend movie marathons with my cousin, he suggested a movie that I hadn’t even heard of…You’ll love it, he said. I was skeptical…I didn’t think I’d like it but I figured, why not? The reason I gave it a try was because the movie wasn’t mainstream. That was also the reason I thought I wouldn’t like it. Needless to say, after I watched it, I fell in love. When I asked my friends if they’d seen it, they hadn’t even heard of it. Sweet! A couple of years later, the movie suddenly became mainstream. People started butchering the lines and overusing them…It didn’t last long but the movie sort of lost its original appeal for me.
When I watch a movie or read a book, I take it in on deep personal levels. Reading a book, especially, is an intense experience for me, which is why I try to stay away from mainstream books. Harry Potter, etc, had no major appeal for me, simply because I feel like they’ve been cheapened by EVERYONE talking about it. The more people are obsessed over a trend, the more I tend to shy away from it. In a way, I feel like if a lot of people start talking about it…it cheapens my own feelings. That might sound silly to most people but I like to give my all to everything in my life. That includes the experience of indulging in a book or a movie…or a song.
I don’t believe that I understand a book better than anyone else. I don’t think that I’m better than anyone in any aspect but I do feel a certain annoyance when too many people gush over something that I love in my own way. Snob is defined as:
1. a person who imitates, cultivates, or slavishly admires social superiors and is condescending or overbearing to others.
2. a person who believes himself or herself an expert or connoisseur in a given field and is condescending toward or disdainful of those who hold other opinions or have different tastes regarding this field: a musical snob.
I would never be condescending toward anyone but I also know the annoyance I feel toward certain things in life which is why I shy away from getting in discussions about an experience such as a book or movie that has hit me on a very personal level, as most of them do. As my good friend pointed out the other night when I told her about a specific annoyance, I do tend to get possessive…Yes, it’s kind of silly but hey, at least I own up to it.
So am I book/movie snob? I don’t believe so but I do tend to get hella possessive and annoyed about certain feelings that I have suddenly becoming cheapened by mainstream opinions and obsessions.
The reality may be that my feelings aren’t cheapened because they are as intense and real as it gets…but I will still shy away from all things mainstream, which is why I hardly read any entertainment blogs or news. I like being in my own little world, thank you.